So this is it. Everything I said to you before you asked me for an apology. So, where are the things I need to apologise for. You accuse me of talking to you like a cunt, like shit, but there is no examples here of me doing that. The haunting bit was light-hearted and, probably,an impossibility. There is nothing else there. Not one word is hostile, so what do you want me to apologise for?
[26/06, 22:45] Derek: Donny, I have just had a message from the police saying that Becci wants nothing to do with me. They have read a message from mum and have attributed it to me. I have not written to her, so can you explain to me what she is trying to do. Does she mean me and mum. only I have no intention of speaking to her.
[26/06, 22:46] Derek: Donny, I have just had a message from the police saying that Becci wants nothing to do with me. They have read a message from Mum and have attributed it to me. I have not written to her, so can you explain to me what she is trying to do. Does she mean me and mum. only I have no intention of speaking to her.
[27/06, 13:17] Derek: Are you giving me the silent treatment Donny. Only I would like to know in case we stumble upon each other so that I know how to act, say at Steven’s, although that will not be the case with Becci now that Steven has banned her from his home. You need to look up the meaning of “Autonomy” son, especially the religious content and how it is a tool of Satan’s. Just take a few second to let me know if you too are excluding us. The police said you sanctioned Becci’s complaint against your dad so I assume you agree with her bizarre logic.
[27/06, 13:39] Smart Donny: No I am not 😁
Just been busy…
[27/06, 13:40] Derek: OK
[27/06, 13:41] Smart Donny: 😁 sanctioned!!! She is a big girl Dad, she makes her own choices, she doesn’t need me to give approval for anything.
[27/06, 14:20] Derek: I know she is Donny, or that she is an autonomous, which is not a good thing. But she contacted mum and mum answered her, with some help from me, but then told the police that the message was from me. That was a lie. I helped mum with a passionate plea to which she totally ignored and feeling cornered she over reacted. She may be a big girl but by her own admission she is mentally unwell, borne out by her belief in autonomy and it’s impossibility to exist. That means that her destructive attitude needs some kind of control and you are best suited for that job. She did something almost unforgiveable to me and must stand accountable for her betrayal of my trust before this will go away. I am going to tell you now that the diabetic specialist told me, just a couple of days ago, that I am dangerously ill with my sugar levels. I am in a constant state of hyperglycaemia feeling comatose, fatigued and disorientated all the time. They said it is extremely concerning and things look like they are starting to go wrong. I believe that mum told her that after which she threatened your mother with the police. Where is her compassion Donny. Mum was offering her an olive branch. Where is her care. Common traits of a autonomist. She even refused to defend you and Jacob as you have your own autonomy and she does not influence you. Rubbish, we all influence each other. I have done nothing wrong. I am happy with things as they are. I honestly do not want this senseless bickering and I do not want to fall out with you, but most importantly, I do not want to befriend Becci, and now, sadly, neither does Steven. He witnessed and sanctioned every word that was written to Becci sat in his front room. She is now no longer welcome there as a result of her nasty behaviour. I love you son, that is the absolute truth. I do not like this but read the message and feel the compassion on mum’s side and the distain on Becci’s. Again, I am sorry about this but I would sooner be honest with you. It is your time to stand for truth. Love you son, Dad xx.
[27/06, 16:40] Derek: Sanctioned!!! The Police Officers choice of words, not mine😁
[27/06, 16:49] Derek: Some interesting reading about autonomy. I believe that Satan is an autonomous evil with a self will coupled with destructive malice and evil intent. I don’t believe that he hangs on a peg in God’s puppet shop waiting to be taken down and sicced on the world like an attack dog. And yes, I believe he has powers way beyond man according to his former rank and status (II Peter 2:11, Jude 19) .Son of the morning (Is:14:12) . Even the fact that the angel Michael had to defend against him (Jude 1:9) is proof enough that he has some use of his faculties and uses them at will to do evil.
There are many ways to describe and discuss sin. Perhaps one definition of major significance is to speak in terms of autonomy. In its simplest form this means self-law or self-government. However, if there is a God who created us and seeks to govern us for our own best good, then autonomy is the height of folly – as well as sin. It is idolatry on steroids.
We perhaps see this especially played out in the radical trans movement. Here we have folks who have so deified autonomy that they believe they can – at will – redefine morality, redefine biology, redefine truth, and redefine reality. Talk about playing God! Talk about kicking God off his throne and elevating mere man in his place.
[27/06, 17:57] Smart Donny: Dad, seriously, do you think I am interested in that??? Besides, your messages are just too long…
[27/06, 18:18] Derek: Funny you should say that, but yes. I thought you might be interested in that. I was, which is why I passed it on to you. You used to have an inquisitive interesting mind. I had never heard the word autonomy before Becci labelled herself, you and Jacob as one and could clearly see the origin of her problem. Besides, it is not that my messages are to long it is that you do not have the patients to read them. They are usually informative and interesting. I think your messages are to short and lack the crucial information I seek, namely, your opinion.
[27/06, 18:21] Derek: For Example: “I am going to tell you now that the diabetic specialist told me, just a couple of days ago, that I am dangerously ill with my sugar levels. I am in a constant state of hyperglycaemia feeling comatose, fatigued and disorientated all the time. They said it is extremely concerning and things look like they are starting to go wrong. I believe that mum told her that after which she threatened your mother with the police” that should be interesting or concerning for you.
[28/06, 11:48] Derek: OK Donny. If all you have to say is a insignificant comment on how verbose my messages are, I guess I know the degree to which you care about what your wife has done to your father. It is a typical trait of the Smart children. They do not care and then wonder why they have no good luck. But at least I know what my value is to you. Short enough for you.
[28/06, 16:36] Smart Donny: Seriously??? In a bad mood are you???
[28/06, 19:13] Derek: Yes Donny, I am. Your wife has called the police on your dad, that is me, you dad, who has always supported you. Just that sentence is sick to read. How would you feel if I reported you for something you had not done, you, my son. I would sooner take the blame myself then dob you in, regardless of what you had done. She did the same with Lehi, and got away with it, then tried to have our dog put down by reporting her to the police for a small nip. She is your wife who you have chosen who has called the police on your father who would give his life for you now and for nearly fifty years. I want to know how you are not more apologetic for the behaviour of your wife to your family. She is autonomous. That makes her weird beyond acceptance and a religious zealot serving Beelzebub. But she is your wife so we say nothing. She called the police which makes her autonomy a total failure. The message essentially came from Mum and Steven is so angry about how she has treated his dad that he has banned her from his home. Do you want to risk the same. She is out of order Donny and it is up to you to bring her back in line to insure it does not happen again. So, I am not so much in a bad mood as I am hurt at what she has done and your lack of concern. If you wake in the morning and I am dead, how will you feel about your lack of concern and action. If I do die, and it is possible, I will come back to exact my displeasure. That is my solemn promise. Honour your parents, and your days in this land will be long.
[29/06, 13:27] Derek: 4 messages totalling 40 words, 10 words per message, none of which is an apology for your wife’s contentious and malicious behaviour. Is that it? Is this what you want? Is that all I should expect to receive? Just let me know so that I know where I stand and i can act accorðingly.
[29/06, 14:47] Derek: OK I just needed you to say you don’t give a fuck and tell me to fuck off and leave you alone, however, your silence says it all. I am sorry about that. I will leave you alone now. If I see you around I will nod my head and say hello but we will leave it there. I am sorry that it has come to this. It is perfectly obvious that what your wife did was malicious. She called the police on me for your mother saying “Goodbye”. You obviously think that is alright. I do not. Love you son, I always will and have wonderful memories of you. I spoilt you and let you get away with far too much but you were a good kid. You loved your dad. Dad
[29/06, 20:44] Derek: I have got some letters here for you but do not worry I will be sending them back with the correct address on them. Keep clean Donny, keep squeaky clean, just like your wife is. That is what silence costs
[29/06, 20:47] Derek: Grassing on your in-laws does not come cheap.
[29/06, 23:04] Smart Donny: Make up your mind, are you speaking to me or not? because over 120 words later and still I don’t see words like, “sorry for giving you shit son”, “sorry I made you a punching bag for my insecurities”, or, “sorry I talked to you like a cunt”. Remember, I am not Derek or Kay and you treat me like I treat you… Or I can start to say harsh words to you!!! The next words better be meak words from you dad because you need to stop this shit!!! Fuck me, seriously, an educated man is telling me he is going to haunt me!! Come on Dad, get a grip and let’s start a sensible dialogue…
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